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If you've ever been caught in heavy rain, you know how hard it hits, how fast it pours, and seems to soak you to your skin in an instant. The fact that storm clouds can hold tons of water for any given time without gravity snatching it to the earth is amazing. When it finally gets heavy enough, it falls, and empties itself with furious force.
When I started realizing that I'd been holding myself back because of doubts and fears that weren't even true, I admit dealing with a lot of anger and frustration over it. When I could see that all the times I'd allowed myself to be taken advantage of, or not taken seriously, or depend on opinions of others for my worth, I had the hard realization that I had allowed nearly every single instance. It was on me. I didn't have the wisdom or knowledge at the time to understand that I didn't have to accept what I was dealing with.
It took some time for me to forgive myself and realize that the only way forward was to let it go and position myself for far better outcomes. I had to let it go, and for about 6 months, negative thoughts began falling from my life like a deluge. It's been wonderful.